Today, my good friend Jen Demarest came over to help. She is SO AWESOME!!! Her brain, unlike mine, can process numerous things at once, and she can look at a whole room and see exactly what needs to be done in what order. Jen is also a wicked good worker, so once she sees what needs to be done, she does it. I feel no jealousy about this, just pride and a small amount of guilt that I am so willing to exploit her.
Due to her assistance, I now know that I have several tasks ahead of me, but if I start writing them here, it will turn into a boring to-do list. Don't do it, Katie, put them on the legal pad!
My children are getting old. I have been realizing lately that whatever future date I am waiting for - the date when they are old enough that I can be alone and read books all by myself and not have to talk to anyone for a few days - will most likely come when my children are out of the house. Maybe not, maybe that is just what it feels like. At any rate, I'm realizing that I need to ENJOY these people Todd and I created, not just get through the day with them.
They are pretty amazing. Every once in a while I think "how on earth did they turn out so terrific?!?" It seems unlikely that it has anything to do with me, since all the ways I thought I'd be a good mom, I'm not. They are just cool people. So I need to stop trying to escape the endless care-taking of these incredible individuals and just enjoy their presence, since they'll be gone before I know it. I see my mom, in her retirement, missing the feeling of importance that comes with people needing you for something. She has said that she "preferred being in the center of things." Well, I am certainly in the center of many things right now, and as overwhelming as that is, I'm determined to experience it as fully as I can stand!
Off to bed. Maybe tomorrow I'll get some more work done, and be one step closer to being READY. Goodnight.
